I think this is a final note here. As of last night I am single again. It relly do hurt. When I woke up today I just feelt so cold. It was like a cold out of this world. The LoneWolf are bringing the cold plains into me.

I dreamt that I was going to work but I dident becouse I had broken up with my girlfriend and a adventure happend in my home nad stuff. But I did go to work today when I woke up. So right now I am here. Listening to Whitesnake and so.

It must be something with me. That I should be alone. Now I have had the best time in my hole life the last monthes. i have had a girlfriend a relationship and I have won the swedish championship.

It was good times. But good times has to end sometime right? That is to bad. Now my lonley time starts again. It feels like this is who I am. That I should be lonley or something. In my life there has been much and I men much of lonleyness. And much of non answered love. Right now I am there again. back to the start and feeling terible.
I am gona devote myself even more to muay thai becouse it is the only love that dosent let you down.
If you have a girlfriend, it will end most likley. Muay Thai cant give me the same psycological pain.

I am going to meet her later today for a final time. I know that it is going to hurt as hell. It feels like suecide to do that. But ok one final time then never more.

I must go on. But right now that feels just so hard. I am thinking about all the good times we had. When she gave me a drawing for christimas witch was so awsome. All the nights at my place just having a good time. Visit her at gotland by random. been to partys. Lots of stuff witch I never will forget.

but now its over. That is history. It dosent exist more. I wish there could be something I could do. But I cant. Its over. I hope i can get as much fights as posible now or move to Thailand or something. I have nothing here now besides my muay thai and maby some friends.

Bye from me.